Some days are just crap. That’s what’s running through my head anyway, when things fall apart. Like…
When CJ wakes up at 6:00am, and poops and pees in the basement, and knocks down a huge stack of 2×4’s, and opens the wood furnace door (again), and he and Moosies climb up on a desk, on a lamp, and fling shelf after shelf of my books to the floor, and Moosies gets stuck in the bathroom sink and burns herself with hot water, and the kids are whiny and grumpy, and I can’t ship them outside because it’s raining, and I don’t get much school done with Kbug…
My gut response is to say, “What a horrible day. My life is awful right now. Woe is me.” (Take your pick!)
And I do, regretfully, give in to that human response. Yesterday when Dee called me, I was in tears. Over the phone I sobbed, “Homeschooling would be so much easier if I didn’t have three other kids to take care of!”
And then I watched a video about a mom and dad whose baby was diagnosed with a rare form of Leukemia. They’re just waiting for him to die, maybe even before Christmas. And I think about the unborn babies ripped out of this world every twenty seconds! And I think about the moms in other countries, watching their kids slowly die from starvation or disease. Stuff uncommon here in America. Stuff I take for granted. Just like I take for granted my healthy, happy children.
I have been wonderfully, extravagantly blessed!
So really, my day was anything BUT crappy! It was beautiful, because it was full of life. I can clean up poop. I can pick up books. (I can even buy new ones!) I can sleep later. I can fix burned hands, because I have salve, and bandaids, and aloe, and stacks of books about “how to.”
Ever since I started intentionally focusing on gratefulness, my “problems” fade away much quicker. I have no real “problems!” Only heart problems, of my own.
I’m grateful for…
65. healthy children
67. Eden Salve
68. a three-year-old that wants to wear undies!
69. free lumber
70. a husband that goes dumpster-diving to get it
71. bookshelves hand-made by my husband
72. hundreds of books to fill the shelves up!
73. instant resources for injuries
74. a daughter that wants to read about Squanto
75. and also prays, “God, please help Mommy not to yell at us, and to love us and take care of us better”
76. snow flurries
77. warm coats, hats, and gloves
78. hot towels from the dryer!
79. tea parties, to relax and regroup with my kids
81. a radio in the kitchen
82. a huge Christmas tree in the downtown circle
83. a Suburban to pile in when we need to drive around and look at lights
84. Christmas lights
85. the Light of the world
86. a Baby to save us all