January 3rd, 2012
I can’t believe you’re 6 years old already! I forget sometimes, that you’re only 16 months behind Kirstyn. She gets a lot of attention as the firstborn, and such an outgoing, social girl. But every day she grows older, you do too!
I’m sorry for those times when you have to live in her shadow. Those times aren’t done yet, I’m afraid. I pray that you will grow stronger and more confident instead of retreating into that shadow. I hope that you use your sister’s strengths to showcase your own. Show us all that you are different from your sister. From any of your siblings! Show us all what a unique and absolutely charming young man you are.
You are, you know — charming! That grin, and that twinkle, your delight in the people around you, your delight in life in general, your sweet hugs and kisses… I don’t know how anyone could not see what a treasure you are! Just yesterday you climbed up next to me on the couch for some snuggle time, and I felt like the most adored mother in the whole world.
I watch you with your baby brother, the way you’re attentive to his moods, eager to make him laugh, and gentle in your play. Zach’s whole face lights up with excitement when he sees you! You were like that with Cameron and Megan too. You won’t remember any of them as babies, but I want you to know that you have always been a wonderful big brother.
I’m proud of you for growing in your desire to serve others. You often offer to set the table for me, help me fold laundry, carry stuff for me, and pretty much anything that you know would make me happy. (You try to serve your brother and sisters too. And we’re still working on gratefulness around here!) Oh, like how you unpacked the Suburban after our family trips this year? One time, Daddy and I got busy talking or something, and next thing we know, the entire car was emptied! Even Daddy’s huge, heavy suitcase! We were super impressed. Not just with those muscles, but also your willingness to work until the job was done even though you were working alone.
You love to keep me company, and I think that’s the sweetest thing of all. I’m almost positive that quality time is your love language! I’m going to try really hard this year to keep you company too! To say “Yes” when you ask me to do something or go somewhere with you. It’s hard, isn’t it, being part of a large family? My greatest desire this year, besides helping you love Jesus, is to see you as a unique individual in my pack of children. I want to love you and your siblings and meet your needs as separate from each other. Because you are so, so special to me! I’ll always have bad mommy days where I don’t love you perfectly. Only God can love you perfectly. But, He’s working on me! He’s working on you too, and I want you to know that I see it. I see God in you.
If you ever need an extra hug or kiss, you can always find me! I love being your mom, and I’ll whisper this secret that isn’t a real secret in your ear as often as you need it: “I LOVE YOU!!!”